Okay this is insane...it is midnight and here I am tapping away on the keyboard in bed (love the laptop)! I just can't sleep tonight...I have nights like this about once a week. It is so different than I've always been, I've always been an early to bed early to rise type of person. I was always in bed by 9pm and usually up at around 4:30 - 5am (I know its insane)...I loved those hours.
Now I drag myself out of bed in the morning, I generally still go to bed at around 9 or 10pm...but I usually watch tv until 11pm and then try and get to sleep. I'm still trying to adjust to this new sleep schedule...I just wish my life would go back to the way it was and stay there.
I think caring for Ron when he was sick is what messed up my schedule, I was up with him at least 5 lots of times much more each night. Because he had lost his sight he couldn't tell if it was morning or night...so if he wanted something (even just to know the time) he had to wake me. I have to say that I would do it all again for him...I miss him every moment of the day. I loved the fact that I could take care of his every need, even the most personal and always felt it was such an honour to do this for him. We often joked about this sort of thing...I'm so glad he had a sense of humor even during the tough times.
Well I'm going to try and get a bit of sleep tonight...I'll have to see if there are any Law and Order reruns on!!