Saturday, March 29, 2008

Save the Drama for your Mama

Yes I haven't posted lately...drama would be why. I don't understand why, if I don't have a husband anymore, I still have to deal with in laws!!

We are planning to bury Ron's ashes this summer in the town where he grew up...and this is where the drama begins. Ron's mom would like another full service, I can't handle one so I say just a graveside service with some people speaking and then a get together afterward. But I've also said if they would like to do a service, I'm okay with that but I can't be a part of it...far too emotional.

Well now she is doing her own service with Ron's brother...oh yeah and they wont be at the burial. I can't believe I'm dealing with this garbage...seriously!!

Anyway I've told them all how I feel and that I'm finished discussing it, I didn't want to sound harsh or play the "wife" card...but I'm not letting others push me around for their own agendas. She has been doing that lately and I'm starting to see through it now.

On to better things...WE'RE GOING TO DISNEYLAND!! Yes Michaela and I...oh yeah and my 22 year old nephew are going away at the end of May to the happiest place on earth. I think I've earned it!!

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Another Saturday Night!!

Well today wasn't too bad, my niece took Michaela to see Horton Hears a Who this afternoon...that game me a chance to get groceries alone (always a treat). When I was leaving the store I saw a red did that make me miss Ron. He had a red Mustang that he loved, I hated that car. He couldn't drive it in the winter so it was in the garage while my vehicle would be out in the snow having to get cleaned off before work (or wherever)!! Oh and it was such a gas hog...and he had quite a commute. What I would give to have it back, we sold it last year...Ron was in the hospital but he knew that he wouldn't be driving it again (he had lost his sight by then). I can't believe that this time last year I was staying in the hospital with doesn't seem like that long ago.

The weather was so great today, I finally got the last of my Christmas lights I have to get things ready to put the house on the market. I have some wall paper to take down and a lot of painting to do...sometimes it is a bit overwhelming.

I won't be building a new house now...the bank turned me down for an equity loan (I guess they don't like lending to people who don't have an income). I'm accepting it as God's will, I've prayed about it and I guess it isn't the right thing to do. Every once in a while I'll feel like I need to plan out my life, this week was like that and when the bank turned me down things felt a little out of control. I really need to work on listening and letting God lead my life...not leading myself. He has let me know that where I am right now is where He wants me to be, I don't need to worry about working my focus needs to be on Michaela right now. I felt so much better when I finally let go of things, I know God has plans for my life...I just need to make sure that I'm listening.

Monday, March 10, 2008

Menu Planning Monday

Okay I haven't done this in a while...but I really need to get back into it.

Monday - Spinach and cheese manacotti
Tuesday - Widow's dinner at Debbie's
Wednesday - Chicken, potatoes and broccoli
Thursday - Perogies
Friday - Pizza
Saturday - Spaghetti and meatballs

Sunday will be a free for all...pick at leftovers or whatever!!!

Sunday, March 9, 2008

The Ultimate Blog Party

Ultimate Blog Party 2008

Welcome to my Ultimate blog Party, 5 Minutes for Mom is hosting it as a way to get to know many other bloggers and they are even prizes and stuff!!

So to introduce myself, my name is Ann and I have a gorgeous little girl Michaela who will be 5 next month. In the last year we've been through quite a rough road...with the love of Christ and His saving grace we've made it this far. My husband was diagnosed with an inoperable brain tumor, Grade IV astrocytoma (glioblastoma multiforme), in December '06. After 7 months of fighting this horrible disease we lost the battle. Through it we drew closer to each other and even closer to our Lord, He lifted us on days we couldn't get up and brought joy on days where we couldn't smile.

I am now a widow raising my wonderful little girl with the help of a wonderful family, amazing friends and a church that loves and cares for us. God has given us so many blessing as we've moved from one stage of our lives to another.

My blog is about trying to get my focus back, to find my way back into this know where I'm suppose to be to glorify the Lord.

Thanks for stopping by, I'm looking forward to going through the other blogs and getting to know and being inspired by some wonderful women out there in blogland!!