Thursday, April 17, 2008

Sweet Friends

Okay after my very sad and rough week...things got very good.

God just knew that I was feeling overwhelmed with life and all the things that I need to get done. I have to paint my basement suite before new carpet gets installed next Tuesday, my lawn needed to get ready for spring...just a bunch of stuff that I really didn't know how I was going to do it. At Bible study on Monday my very good friend just announced that on Tuesday there would be a work party at my a group of people showed up and got so much done!!! We started painting, ripping out carpet, lawn raked, shed cleared out...they even put training wheels on Michaela's "new to her" bike. God is so good...I went to bed feeling so great (but really really sore)!!!

I'm still painting downstairs, but most of it is done...I love my friends!! I've also decided (with the encouragement of my very good friend) that I MUST get more disciplined in my devotional life, it really is what I need to do to draw closer to the Lord.

I'm also now getting ready for Michaela's birthday party this Saturday (a little earlier than her actual birthday). We are having a pool party, I've got the pool booked so it should be fun!! I've started her goody bags and I think I'll go shopping tonight to get some snacks and stuff.

Well I should get myself together for an Epicure party tonight!

Monday, April 14, 2008

Last Lecture

Okay this is such a mistake, I can't sleep is 1:30am now. I got out of bed and decided to watch some tv shows that I've DVR'd. So after watching 30 Rock and my favourite The Office I have started watching Primetime: Last Lecture. It is about a professor who has been diagnosed with pancreatic cancer...he has only been given a few months to live. He has some wonderful things to share, what is getting me is now they have his wife and children...oh this is hitting really close to home.

Lately I feel like I'm getting into some serious self pity. I can't believe this is where my life is, I hate it. I'm miss Ron so much, I miss having him next to me, being able to laugh with is so hard to be without him.

Okay I have to go to bed now...I need to try and get some sleep.

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

Oh the Struggles

Okay so yesterday was Ron's birthday, it was such a busy day that I really didn't have time to think too much about things. I also have a friend's 3 children this week while they are away (they are in school during the day so it isn't too much they are really great kids).

Anyway, there was a dinner last night with the pastoral candidate and his wife at our Bible study group. They seem to be really great people and I enjoyed getting to know them better. I'm looking forward to hearing Bob speak on Sunday.

Now I struggle with a couple in my group, they are very nice people but I have a few issues with them. I think I was also a bit sensitive last night as well...but when someone announces a praise item about a fellow in town who has a brain tumor (this guys tumor has shrunk). I know that this is my struggle, I wasn't upset that his tumor had shrunk, but upset that this person had made a big deal about it. This is my selfish side, I felt that it was a bit insensitive of him to do this while I was feel free to say "suck it up princess, it isn't all about you". I do know this and I'm trying to deal with it...just give me time.

Now, Ron's mom and brother are still not going to be attending his burial, I am truly hoping that they aren't doing this to upset me...because it really doesn't matter to me if they are there or not. I just hope and pray that they don't regret their decision.

We are now really counting down to Disneyland...6 weeks today!!! A family from our church will be staying in our basement suite for May and June, it will be great to have someone living here while we're away...and taking care of my dog (right Jen)!!

Now I'm off to take wallpaper down...need to get things painted downstairs for said family!!