Sunday, September 30, 2007

Sad Day

Well today was my pastor's last day, his last sermon...I will truly miss him.

Ron and I were so blessed when we started going to our church. We felt so welcome and really at home there...that is how a church should be. After all that we've gone through this year I know the Lord led us there. He gave us the gift of a wonderful church family and amazing support system...I can't imagine not having these people in my life.

I love my church and while I'll miss our pastor I know the love that I have for the family there will remain. I pray for the search committee and the responsibility that is set before them...this is the time that a church is vulnerable.

Anyway this post was actually going to be about something that my pastor said to me after I gave him a hug. He said I was a great example for him...I was pretty blown away with that. I would never think of myself as an example to anyone...let alone a senior pastor. Really though that compliment isn't directed at me...God did some amazing things with me in the last year. He lifted me daily when I wouldn't have been able to stand on my own. He surrounded me with people who could help me get through each day. He gave me people who lifted me and my family up in prayer daily. He gave me a beautiful little girl who is most definitely her father's daughter. Most of all He gave me a husband who loved the Lord and the knowledge that I will see him again...the greatest gift.

Thursday, September 27, 2007

A New Beginning

My life has changed drastically in the last year...actually in the last 10 months.

I had the honour of caring for my husband as he courageously battled brain cancer...sadly he lost his battle on July 28, 2007. I am now a single mother to a beautiful little 4 year old girl who is the light of my life.

I never expected to be at this place in my life, I'm pretty sure nobody does. I knew I wouldn't be single again, I married the love of my life...we'd be together forever. Someone said to me "We plan and God laughs", I know that while I don't understand why we went through this it is in God's plan. While that doesn't mean that my heart isn't broken and that I'm not very angry at God some means that the next day I will be okay.

So now I start figuring out what I'm going to do and how I'm going to do it...every day is a new beginning. I know that I have an amazing support system with friends and family and an amazing church family.