Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Biting the Bullet

Well after my last post, things kind of went from bad to worse. I really felt like I was in a pit and couldn't get out.

Four years ago I started a medications called Effexor XR for anxiety, I was not happy to be going on it but it really helped me a lot. I had often talked to the doctor about getting off of it...but the time never seemed right. Well this spring we decided that I could try and come off. Now you can't just stop taking this medication...you need to go down in dosage very very gradually. I was able to completely stop taking it in June, I felt such a sense of accomplishment.

After this last week I decided I needed to go back to the doctor and start up again. I spent a great deal of time in prayer and the Word, while I would like nothing more than to be free of any medication I know that right now I do need to be on this medication.

The first little while on this drug is tough, there are side effects...I'm just waiting for them to go away so I can start feeling normal again!!

On thing that makes me very happy is having Jen here with me!!

5 comments:

Mrs. Wilson said...

HAPPY TO BE HERE!!

Mommy Needs A Time Out said...

You are kept in my prayers Ann.

MarshaMarshaMarsha said...

While nobody really wants to be on medication, don't feel like a failure because you are! God blesses us with such tools at the times we need.

I'm glad you have Jen with you. It's nice to have someone to hug and just be together.

Laura said...

I'm so sorry you are struggling Annie. Praying for you.

L

Tanya said...

Hey Annie!

Just wanted you to know that I think of you often! I read this post and it really hit home.

A couple of years ago, I too had to go on an anti-depressant/anxiety medication. I had hit rock bottom and couldn't get out of my hole that I seemed to have found myself in. A lot of people understood, but a lot didn't. Some said that if I just relied on God, I wouldn't need the meds. That just made me feel worse!

I believe that there are Dr's for a reason, and there is medication for a reason. They all have their purpose in certain situations! I don't believe that "not having enough faith" is the problem.

I hope that you can feel like yourself again, meds or no meds...if you need them right now, then you do what you have to do!

I know that you are surrounded by friends you love and support you through everything...and there is a wonderful blessing! Take care of yourself!