Okay this is such a mistake, I can't sleep tonight...it is 1:30am now. I got out of bed and decided to watch some tv shows that I've DVR'd. So after watching 30 Rock and my favourite The Office I have started watching Primetime: Last Lecture. It is about a professor who has been diagnosed with pancreatic cancer...he has only been given a few months to live. He has some wonderful things to share, what is getting me is now they have his wife and children...oh this is hitting really close to home.
Lately I feel like I'm getting into some serious self pity. I can't believe this is where my life is, I hate it. I'm miss Ron so much, I miss having him next to me, being able to laugh with him...it is so hard to be without him.
Okay I have to go to bed now...I need to try and get some sleep.