Well today wasn't too bad, my niece took Michaela to see Horton Hears a Who this afternoon...that game me a chance to get groceries alone (always a treat). When I was leaving the store I saw a red Mustang...wow did that make me miss Ron. He had a red Mustang that he loved, I hated that car. He couldn't drive it in the winter so it was in the garage while my vehicle would be out in the snow having to get cleaned off before work (or wherever)!! Oh and it was such a gas hog...and he had quite a commute. What I would give to have it back, we sold it last year...Ron was in the hospital but he knew that he wouldn't be driving it again (he had lost his sight by then). I can't believe that this time last year I was staying in the hospital with him...it doesn't seem like that long ago.
The weather was so great today, I finally got the last of my Christmas lights down...now I have to get things ready to put the house on the market. I have some wall paper to take down and a lot of painting to do...sometimes it is a bit overwhelming.
I won't be building a new house now...the bank turned me down for an equity loan (I guess they don't like lending to people who don't have an income). I'm accepting it as God's will, I've prayed about it and I guess it isn't the right thing to do. Every once in a while I'll feel like I need to plan out my life, this week was like that and when the bank turned me down things felt a little out of control. I really need to work on listening and letting God lead my life...not leading myself. He has let me know that where I am right now is where He wants me to be, I don't need to worry about working my focus needs to be on Michaela right now. I felt so much better when I finally let go of things, I know God has plans for my life...I just need to make sure that I'm listening.